Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Bliss (and confusion?)

I cut really deep last night. Not enough to die, but deep. I didn’t eat yesterday at all. Not a bite past my lips.
When I weighed in this morning, utter bliss.
Im going to kill myself slowly. Starvation, but I fuckin ate lunch. I purged till I saw blood and water.
Bliss. This aint dying. This is living.

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  1. I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
    My weakness is that I care too much
    And my scars remind me that the past is real
    I tear my heart open just to feel

    Drunk and I'm feeling down
    And I just wanna be alone
    I'm pissed cause you came around
    Why don't you just go home
    Cause you channel all your pain
    And I can't help you fix yourself
    You're making me insane
    All I can say is

    [Chorus:]
    I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
    My weakness is that I care too much
    And our scars remind us that the past is real
    I tear my heart open just to feel

    I tried to help you once
    Against my own advice
    I saw you going down
    But you never realized
    That you're drowning in the water
    So I offered you my hand
    Compassions in my nature
    Tonight is our last stand

    [Chorus]

    I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
    And I just wanna be alone
    You shouldn't ever come around
    Why don't you just go home?
    Cause you're drowning in the water
    And I tried to grab your hand
    And I left my heart open
    But you didn't understand
    But you didn't understand
    Go fix yourself

    I can't help you fix yourself
    But at least I can say I tried
    I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
    I can't help you fix yourself
    But at least I can say I tried
    I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

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